Sleeplessness...

It's 5:45am now... well... it should be 6am by the time I finish typing this entry.

Why am I awake at this unearthly hour, you ask? I have no idea at all, to be honest.


Nothing is actually troubling me today and I had a really fun day with Hanluen at the CSI exhibition at Science centre today. Maybe it's the thought of cooking for a special someone that is giving me the jitterbugs... haha... I just can't seem to feel tired enough to fall asleep...

Otherwise, it might be the booster that I am eating with the slimming pills... Zhengyi did say it might keep me up... =.= the effect wasn't so great when I was working, so I guess it says a lot about the effect of working has on me. It drained me so much that I feel so tired at night I have no problem sleeping... lol...

Ahhh talking about tomorrow... there are so many what ifs in my head that I think if you weigh my brain now, it will weigh a ton... I don't like to disappoint people... I don't like that I cannot live up to people's expection of me... I don't like losing because it makes me feel like I didn't do my very best... so therefore, the what ifs... I always think of the what ifs... to let myself mentally gear myself up so that when disappointment hits, it won't hurt so much. Of couse, in a way, these translate to motivation as well... but well... Half empty girl here so I always prepare for the worst... XD

I guess I should just turn off the lights and lie on the bed and wait for sleep to come... Bye~